Oddities

I've lost my best friend. We've hit the skids before and yes I know the whole "oh you guys have been friends since forever just kiss and make up already." This time it's very different. This time I really needed him to be there for me, to really take my side. I didn't expect him to do the exact opposite. I thought after I explained to him how serious I was he'd understand. I've been crying every other night for the past 2 months, my happy face is wearing paper thin, I really need a helping hand here. I've listened and tolerated him saying a lot of dumb things but saying I'm the cause of all of this is just fucking stupid. So that's it. As much as it hurts I am done.

I feel alone.