Post 88

So I guess this is more of a confession than anything.

I can't sleep without sleeping pills. I simply can't. From the transition from half a pill to 3 or 4 to 5 or 6. And I will always push this off to the side with a "Don't worry about it, I know what I'm doing." No I don't. But do you really think I'm going to ask for help? No. I feel too guilty to ask someone to help me out. Can I be a total burden for you? Will you stay awake with me because I can't sleep?
Am I asking for help? Is this even serious enough to ask for help?

That's it.